For My Love

To whom it may concern,

I've known you for so long. From the day I could walk till the moment I'm writing this letter of my heart.

I don't know what to say actually and I feel a bit nervous writing this letter. I don't know whether you will read this. But if you're ever to read this, it would be one of the greatest wonderful memories I will ever have!

The English proverb may say "To err is human" but in my collection of proverbs says "Wallahi you're perfect!"

At first, I didn't really understand why people had obsessive love towards you. They would give their lives in order to protect you, their backs would become your shield from unlettered arrows piercing your heart, and their bodies would defend you from being slashed by swords.

But now, I understand, really understand why. Because you're here to perfect good manners. If you're gone, then everything will bygone. I would not exist in this true path.

Your life has mesmerized mine. I tried to follow you life. I tried to be like you. I've tried and I'm still trying but I've failed many times. You've inspired me many times.

I can still remember when I was a little girl. I lost my sweet teacher. She is the one who always nag on me. Remind me to bring dictionary when it was English class.

I cried and cried my heart out. Then, my friend said, " Patience, girl. Do you still remember how 'he' survived?"

I have never tested with the death of my closest kin. But you underwent a complete suffering. You were an orphan when you were young! You lost your parents, uncle, grandfather, your wife and your sons. You raised yourself by being a shepherd. But my life was fulfilled with everything needed for me. You've taught me the meaning of "No pain no gain"

There were times when I felt that Solah is boring. It's like a burden. Sometimes I felt it's just a waste of time. But I remember your bruised feet praying. I am only asked to pray 5 times a day but you! You are made compulsory to pray the whole day even the midnight.

Your existence has made me in love with you. You're my love. I would say out loud. "I love you" or "Bahibbakawi awi" or "Uhibbuka fillah" or "Ai shite iru" or "Wo ai ni" or "Mahal Kita" for the sake of you. I love you bcs you love Allah and you make me closer to Allah..

And I wanna get close to you bcs you're close to Allah so I cry my heart out, I let it all go bcs after every rainfall must come a rainbow and trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never even met.

And I am sure that I will never forget you bcs you're implanted in my blood. Bcs we have known for so long, I have one request. It's kinda like impossible.

I do love you, but I've never seen you. My request is, when is it the time for me to meet you? When will we sit down together and chit chat? When can we share? Isn't sharing is caring?

Huhu..It's kinda impossible for me to meet a great man such as yourself.

I love you, min somimil Qolbi!

I remember your call before you passed away.

But now, I am waiting for you to call me again in the judgement day.  Because I am nothing without you.

I love you!

You are Rasullullah.. and I..

I am in love!

The one needing you,
Tengku Nur Asyikin